I went to the concert with MVP, SM (this realllly pretty girl I went to law school with, she graduated this past May, and SM’s boyfriend. The concert was awesome, everyone was super trashed and super nice and I just kept dancing.

After the concert MVP’s drunk ass decided to be annoying and throw a shit fit with her bf. She thought he was hanging out with another girl so insisted on going over there, he kept shutting her down and she kept making up stories of how she wanted to go over because she was sick. At this point I was annoyed and just called him and told him I was bringing her over because she was throwing up and I couldn’t take her home because her mom was awake. I know I’m such a good friend.

I can’t deal with her and her boyfriend anymore. He cheats on her, she obsesses over it and then they go on vacation and repeat. He’s 42, people don’t change, especially old people, so if you can’t deal with it then leave.

SM and I went to Abe & Arthur’s on Thursday with this promoter I know. He wanted us to go to SL with him afterwards but we wanted to go to see Bob Sinclar at Lavo instead so we just snuck away as the group was going into SL while laughing and saying “done and dash. Yes, we are horrible people. Lavo was fun. Bob Sinclar looked miserable being there and pretty much played the Swedish House Mafia set from their concert.

I also met a normal guy my age through SM and this other guy from law school. The guy asked for my # and never texted. It’s like why did you ask? I didn’t really flirt with you because I don’t really care at the moment sooo why bother? I think the guy from school might have mentioned that I’m a total bitch so that’s probably why.

At the moment I’m at LAX connecting for my flight to Sidney! I can’t wait to see my London bf, who FD introduced me too. Actually that’s a lie, I don’t really care about him either. I can’t wait to chill out.

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Chloe B.

If you are expecting a post on things that inspire me or how you can find inspiration this is NOT it. In fact this is the exact opposite – it’s bashing people who sit on the internet and talk about inspiration. This rant is dedicate to my former friend/friend/I don’t know what we are L. L has taken it upon herself to bombard facebook, twitter, tumblr and all things internet with her current search for inspiration. She’s not seeking inspiration or advice from the rest of us but instead she is sharing videos of other people talking about what inspires them and how they found themselves. These are basically motivational speeches. If you know me you know where I stand on motivational speeches. My stand on motivational speeches is the same as my stand on religion (if you are easily offended now is the time to tune out/sorry for offending anyone) – they are for the weakest link. You see I was raised by two engineers who grew up in communism and thus don’t believe in god but rather science. These two people moved to a whole new country when they were in their 30′s/40′s, where they didn’t know anyone and didn’t speak the language and ended up a success story so thus they believe that individuals are capable of achieving their goals on their own without the imaginary man in the sky there to guide them. Therefore, I was raised under the impression that if I fail at something it’s because I either didn’t try hard enough or I didn’t want it badly enough. I also have this whole theory on how there is a bigger picture that we don’t see and that certain events happen or don’t happen as part of the scheme of that bigger picture but that’s not a belief in religion but more of a belief in the universe. Believing in fate or the universe I think is different from believing in god, I don’t know if that makes sense to you or if I’m explaining myself correctly.

Anyway, back to my original rant – I don’t understand what posting these videos does for her. It actually makes me dislike her because the whole idea of seeking inspiration through videos on the internet seems so phony and then going further and sharing the fact that you do this with the rest of us makes you seem pretentious. Additionally, I personally see inspiration as something artistic and when I feel “artistic” I go walking around outside or go to a gallery or to a museum…I don’t go on line. And now I’m going back to studying for my health law final.

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Chloe B.

Then I was kind of just being moody and he wasn’t paying attention to me but we went out to dinner again on the 15th. Then we went back to his place and watched TV and got into a fight. He’s like we’re not compatible bla bla. Then he told me were going to put the yellow light on because he didn’t see this ending well and I was reminding him of his crazy ex gf. Then he invites me to his birthday party which was this past Saturday at his townhouse. I went with MVP and this girl SM, who I went to law school with who’s super pretty. We all got super drunk. This artist who had done some paintings that were hanging in the house was there and he made me a little painting which was super cool. All of FD’s friends hit on me. The two young guys from London were also there and OP told me to just facebook friend him. At the end of the party I was looking though FD’s camera and saw that he had gone to the Cure concert with his ex the night before but “they’re just friends” and “he didn’t sleep with her” – yeah and I was born yesterday.

I ended up going home with FD and I did a little birthday after party for him ala pink wig, thigh highs and this ridiculous teddy I ordered on line. In the middle of the night he went downstairs to put water in the humidifier so I decided to go through his phone. He has whats app but he never whats app’s me so I opened the app and saw that his only conversation was with his ex. What’s app has a button on it that allows you to email the entire chat history to someone – so I emailed a years worth of texts to myself. I was waiting for the email to send so I could delete it when he came upstairs. He goes “are you looking through my phone” and I of course said no and he then gives me the perfect excuse and says “is your iphone parked over there too?” and I replied with “yeah I’m trying to put it in the charger but I can’t see anything”. Uhm I’m in law school, why would you hand me the perfect excuse on a silver platter? Then he gets into bed and I’m hugging him so that he can’t grab his phone and he goes “why is your heart beating so loud?” and I go “it’s not, I’m just little so it feels louder” – I know that was a stupid excuse but I had to think quick. Then he started falling asleep so I get up and next to the phone is a glass we fill with water – I grab the glass, grab his iphone and go downstairs , I went into the bathroom and deleted the email I sent. Went back upstairs and put the phone and the glass down. I don’t know if he saw but I think he would have flipped out if he knew so I think I’m good. The next day I read an entire years worth of messages but the weird part is that there’s a gap from when we were seeing each other in September and I know she was messaging him.

OP facebook chatted me yesterday. He’s going to be in Australia at the same time as me and invited me to go sailing on their boat. He also asked me if I went home after the party – of course I did.

I gave the old guy his walking papers yesterday but I don’t think he understood. I texted him when I’m nice you’re not interested when I have an attitude you’re not interested I dress up for you you’re not interested I think I’ve exhausted all my options have a good one and he writes back “silly, Im sorry I live my life the best I can and often find myself overwhelmed” “I appreciate you” …I read it and was like uhm you’re a moron and didn’t reply.

Also the texts show he didn’t tell me the whole story but most of it and both him and his ex are crazy. Also there were pictures and one was her at some lingierie shoot (she’s a lingeire model) and I recognized it becuase it was from the site that I ordered the lingeire I wore for his birthday after party. MVP’s bf was right his ex looks dirty and she’s nuts.

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Chloe B.

If you know me or if you read this blog you know that I am obsessed with Halloween. I feel like my costumes have gotten way more interesting and authentic over the years.

In 2007, I wore a store bought costume and dressed up as Alice in Wonderland. The dress was super short and I had bangs at the time so it looked super cute/porn at the same time. L, some other people and I ended up at Buddha Bar which was great and then some random after parties. There was a limo ride with a middle aged Arab man and a real life stripper at some point that night.

In 2008, I didn’t do anything, dressed as a school girl and went to some lame bar.

In 2009, I dressed up as Mia in Pulp Fiction, bloody nose covered with white powder and super short hair – I cut my hair because of love life problems but I lie and tell people I cut it for the costume. Went to Bagatelle and Kiss & Fly with L and MVP, everyone LOVED my costume! Ended up at Mr. Ungrateful’s apartment afterwards wearing a trench coat and lingerie, I don’t remember having sex but I remember having a fight and me storming out at 5am and that was the last time he saw me naked.

In 2010, that was the Chloe Halloween Shit Show. I dressed up as Alice in Closer – yes when she was a stripper with the pink wig. Barely anyone got it, most people just thought I was a regular stripper. Went to Oak Room with L and MVP, they oversold tickets, MVP got bored of waiting to get in, as soon as she left I saw this guy doing the party and he walked us in and they didn’t even look at our tickets which was basically a waste. SD was in town and at the same table, I was a bitch to him, then I got drunk, he was ignoring me, we all went over to Lavo and L left me because she was getting annoyed at me being drunk.  At Lavo, SD was mean to me, I started hysterically crying in front of everyone, we all left and I started walking away from them towards Madison Avenue at 4am dressed as a stripper. Thankfully one of the guys had the bright idea of putting me, still crying into a cab.

This year I’m dressing up as Edie Sedgwick, I didn’t know who she was until I watched Factory Girl on the flight back from London a while ago. Loved the movie, which apparently wasn’t very factual, and ended up reading her biography. I’m draw to these self destructive women who are so in the spot light and fade out so tragically. I got the blonde wig already so this should be fun. No idea where we’re going (MVP and I and some others) but SD is back in town so will try to avoid that.

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Chloe B.

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Chloe B.

I just recently had fall break, there was a Hampton’s trip involved and lots of love life drama but I’ll write about that later. I just booked my flight to Sydney, Australia!!!! It cost me $2,ooo but whatever it’s worth it. My cousin is going to go live there with his girlfriend for 6 months so I’m going to go stay with them for 3 weeks during my winter break. There’s a million and one things I want to see but I’m not sure it’ll all be possible – definitely want to make a trip to Melbourne and Tasmania and I’m really interested in going to see how the aborigines live but I think that’s super far out and maybe impossible? I’ll figure it out as for now yayyyyy!

So FD, the old guy, and I are dunzo. He lasted a month…without any fights…that’s more than most. Basically the ex drama was getting out of hand, we went to dinner last Thursday where he was all upset because he was a having a bad day. He decided to take his bad day out on me as apparently I’m everyone’s favorite punching bag. I just dealt with it. He went to LA for the weekend. Called me when he got back, everything was all peachy until his ex decided to let him know that she was “better” now so he obviously had to go out to dinner with her. I got upset but I figured that it was just dinner and she’d probably do something crazy and that would be the end of that. Apparently I was wrong. He went out to dinner with her again on Friday and Saturday we basically had a talk where he told me he was going to stay with her until she got back on her feet and found someone new. This girl is a parasite and can’t be alone. We decided that we’d just be friends and not hook up until this all blew over.

Feeling rejected I decided that the best way to make myself feel better would be to sleep with TM. It didn’t really work, he wasn’t as good as I remembered or maybe he just felt super guilty about cheating on his girlfriend. Whatever, not really my problem.

So this whole me being patient and friendly thing lasted until yesterday when everyone who I told the story to reacted the same way “get the hell out of there, you’re a hot law student and he’s 40″. I called him when I got home and he didn’t answer so of course I resorted to email.

“I called you before to tell you that I can’t be your patient friend. I can deal with all the baggage and the drama but I can’t deal with you rejecting me, especially not within the first month. If you saw any potential in this you wouldn’t have screwed it up by going back to something that was broken without repair and I’m not going to play second fiddle to your ex or place myself in a situation where I constantly have to look over my shoulder to see if she’s there. I wish you the best.”

Can we talk about how normal and non-psycho that message was? I haven’t been psycho since SD. Who am I? He replied this morning telling me to call his office, so I did. He basically gave me the whole speech about how he doesn’t want me to be mad and he didn’t reject me because of me but because of the situation and he can’t help that he’s still attached to her and that he told me from the beginning. Yeah, in the beginning you also told me you wouldn’t get back with her because it obviously won’t work. Whatever, as I say – they always come back.

PS last time we hung out he told me to bring the book he lent me back and I told him that set of red alarms. He didn’t get it but I guess it really was a sign that the curtains were closing. Oh well.

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Chloe B.

I went to see Anything Goes on Broadway with my family Friday night. Personally, I’m not really a Broadway show type of person and this was only my 3rd show, Broadway shows are more my mothers thing, whereas the ballet is more my thing. Out of all three shows that I’ve seen (Mamma Mia, Burn the Floor), this was definitely the best. Sutton Foster is absolutely amazing!!! I think I would just go to the show simply to see her. For the most part there were several LOL moments, some chuckling and some parts which were boring. Both my brother and I agreed that the parts of the show focusing on the character Hope were just boring because Hope was boring and not very attractive. My favorite part was the scene right before intermission where they performed what was I’m assuming to be the main song “Anything Goes” which was accompanied by a very long and exciting tap dance number. Also, loved the majority of the costumes. I’d recommend going to see this show. Side note: the majority of the audience was extremely old, like white hair and or balding old, I think my brother and I were the youngest people there but that might also be due to the fact that most 20 something year old’s don’t spend their Friday nights at Broadway shows. Extra side note: they did a tad bit of this show on the first episode of this seasons Glee.

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Chloe B.

This is an update on my dating a 40 year old…I just turned 24…I’m also insane…

FD has been dealing with a lot of crazy ex gf drama and every time she does something new his attention goes from me to her which obviously results in my being neurotic and obsessing over the situation. It also leads to me not feeling wanted and the biggest mistake any man can make with me is make me feel unwanted or insecure because then all hell breaks loose.

I called him Thursday morning, he said he’d call back in 10 minutes when he got to the office and then never called so at 6ish I sent a text saying ok now Im officially pissed off.  He calls me immediately and I’m just like you didn’t call me back you don’t like me bla bla and hes like I know I’m sorry I just got so busy let me make it up to you, lets go to dinner tonight and come to my party tomorrow and I said I dont know if I want to see you and hes like now you’re letting your pride get in the way of a nice evening etc.

We went to Arte which is this super cozy Italian restaurant downtown and the food was amazing. When we got home he made a comment about how he likes that I dress up for him, I had on these cute newsboy short shorts and a cream body suit that has a corset type back and he made some comment that I looked like a present all wrapped up for him. We had sex and cuddled and napped and then I had to go home. It was so nice.  He also told me to pick my battles wisely because I only have a limited amount of temper tantrums haha.

Friday I went to his party and everyone, including him, was obsessed with my dress and he told me I looked like a little barbie doll =). It was this very retro dress that looks designer but is actually from urban outfitters muahaha. His friend didn’t know we were talking and asked me out and FD kinda got a little pissed and was like you can go if you want Im not going to stand in your way and I was like uhm nooo.

Then this other “couple” we’re friends with left the party and were texting us to go clubbing with them and he’s like no I don’t want to go lets just go home.

We go home, he doesn’t try to have sex with me,  barely cuddled it was so weird and in the morning he tells me his ex was texting all night threatening to come to the party etc. She sent about 100 texts and he didn’t want to go clubbing with our friends because he didn’t want her to attack me or flip out if she saw us out.

Saturday we go to a really nice lunch at Blue Water Grill and he unloads all this crazy shit that’s happened with his parents and that he had another ex that killed herself the same weekend his then girlfriend burned to death in a car crash.  Like so much shit and he’s like I need a friend more than a lover right now etc. I asked him why he always tells me he doesn’t care if I’m fucking other people, whether he’s testing me or trying to tell me not to get attached and he’s like well I can’t tell you not to get attached and its probably both but mostly the former. Also my dress coupled with my leather jacket transitioned really well into a daytime dress and not a walk of shame dress.

So he takes me on dates, we have sex, and he’s always testing me sooo what are we doing? Should I just be patient and wait out the ex drama or what?

But it’s sooo nice because he’s the 1st guy in a really long time where there’s no fighting and Im not being crazy. It’s just so chill.

I decided to be an ass at lunch when the waiter was there and FD was cleaning something on the table and I go dad stop cleaning and he’s like I want kids so bad etc, that clock is ticking.

I think he told me all of the private things he did because he knew I wouldn’t run away and I thought about hitting the brakes but I never protect my heart so why start now.

My mom is also getting worried that I’m spending so much time with him, she think’s he’s 35.

PS the couple we’re friends with the guy is 42 and the girl is 21 and as a joke he put up a status saying “who has blow” and someone wrote “maybe you wouldn’t need blow if you weren’t f***ing that 18 year old”. We were laughing all weekend.

In other news I’m completely over TM weeee.